She paused to take her breath. Leaning against the side of the car, she closed her eyes and breathed deeply, trying to quieten her racing heart. It didn't work. She had no explanation. No reasoning. It was too late already. It had happened. She knew, it was that split second when their eyes had met. That moment when she'd let her guard down, willingly.
She'd lifted her eyes to his. Knowing that it was too risky, yet challenging her insecurities. With hesitation that had lasted for seconds, yet had seemed like an eternity, she'd raised her head and looked up. Directing her gaze in a straight line of vision. She'd not flinched, even though all her senses had been quivering with the anticipation of what she might uncover.
She'd known she'd find questions, not answers. But she hadn't bargained on the depth and intensity of those questions. She'd known she'd be mesmerized, but she hadn't been prepared for just how much. She'd known she'd find a longing for redemption, but she hadn't understood just how much guilt and regret she'd encounter.She'd known she'd find a silent plea, but she hadn't known what that plea would hold.
And in that exact moment when their eyes had connected, she'd silently whispered the answers. And she'd looked away, already giving away too much, too early.
Her heart was still racing, but she opened her eyes and looked up. There would be time to look back and reflect on that moment. There would be time to cherish it. There would be time to miss it.
But not now. Now, was the time to be real.
She'd lifted her eyes to his. Knowing that it was too risky, yet challenging her insecurities. With hesitation that had lasted for seconds, yet had seemed like an eternity, she'd raised her head and looked up. Directing her gaze in a straight line of vision. She'd not flinched, even though all her senses had been quivering with the anticipation of what she might uncover.
She'd known she'd find questions, not answers. But she hadn't bargained on the depth and intensity of those questions. She'd known she'd be mesmerized, but she hadn't been prepared for just how much. She'd known she'd find a longing for redemption, but she hadn't understood just how much guilt and regret she'd encounter.She'd known she'd find a silent plea, but she hadn't known what that plea would hold.
And in that exact moment when their eyes had connected, she'd silently whispered the answers. And she'd looked away, already giving away too much, too early.
Her heart was still racing, but she opened her eyes and looked up. There would be time to look back and reflect on that moment. There would be time to cherish it. There would be time to miss it.
But not now. Now, was the time to be real.
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