Holding Back

When I first started this blog, I thought that I would have so much to write, that I won't have time to do anything else. But I've found that I am still holding back....don't know why. Maybe because after reading several blogs avidly for the past month, I have found that I have come to know the people who write in them so well......maybe more than if I knew them in person. I feel that writing your thoughts, your beliefs, excerpts from your daily life for people to read may paint a clearer picture of who you really are, than interacting with co-workers, or with family members you have hardly anything in common with. It's strange, but writing actually does that. Maybe we're more open when we write, or maybe we can express ourselves more through written words than spoken ones. Or maybe we're just braver when we're hiding in cyberspace. Or maybe it's just me........
Or maybe it's because I haven't really determined the identity of my blog. I mean, will I write anything that comes to mind?? Will I talk about my life?? Will I express my political and cultural views....or will it be a combination of all....I guess so far it's a combination.......I guess I'll stick with combination......anyway, we'll see.
I'm actually feeling better now ........I think I like blogging ;)

Nostalgia

Something is pulling me back....something so powerful...I am resisiting...but there is such a bittersweet feeling that cannot be ignored. I know I can control it.....that urge to be repossesed by the memories....but I don't want to...I want to succumb to that feeling...even if for just a little while...enjoy it...mellow in it's peacefulness....
But suddenly, it's not peaceful anymore...it's painful...so painful that I can actually feel it physically. An ache so profound, I cannot overcome it even if I tried. And then it's peaceful again....and I have the choice to ignore it.
But again...I choose not to................

In the Twilight

In the Twilight,
There is no doubt,
That hearts will soften,
And souls enlighten

Let us join hands,
Under the clear sky,
And pray for blessings,
And ask no more

Love and Tenderness,
That's all we need,
To change the world,
And beat the worst

Our time has passed,
The light has gone,
Reality is back,
And it's far too late...........