She paused, with her hand on the doorknob. She always trusted her instinct. It never failed her. Right now, she fervently wished it would. She wanted so much to be wrong. She wanted so much to be delusional. Try as she might, her gut instinct told her that if she turned that doorknob, and pushed open that door, she would become a broken woman.
She took a step back. A subtle step, hardly noticeable if anyone had been watching. Her eyes filled up with sudden tears. Her breath came in short puffs, doing nothing to nourish her startled thoughts. She waveringly thought of how her life would change in an instant. She hesitantly contemplated her options. She slowly tried to collect her scattered emotions.
And then the memories started scouring her soul. Mostly joyful memories. Nothing bitter, nor hurtful about them. No memory painful enough to make her want to take another step towards what she felt she knew, but refused to acknowledge.
She removed her hand. It was cool, after losing all its warmth to that cold metal. She rested it on her heart and took a deep breath. It was touch and go. She couldn't just stand there forever. All she had to do was reach out her hand again and push open that door with all the courage she could muster. And surrender her destiny to fate.
She nodded her head, feeling confident.
And then turned around and walked away.
She took a step back. A subtle step, hardly noticeable if anyone had been watching. Her eyes filled up with sudden tears. Her breath came in short puffs, doing nothing to nourish her startled thoughts. She waveringly thought of how her life would change in an instant. She hesitantly contemplated her options. She slowly tried to collect her scattered emotions.
And then the memories started scouring her soul. Mostly joyful memories. Nothing bitter, nor hurtful about them. No memory painful enough to make her want to take another step towards what she felt she knew, but refused to acknowledge.
She removed her hand. It was cool, after losing all its warmth to that cold metal. She rested it on her heart and took a deep breath. It was touch and go. She couldn't just stand there forever. All she had to do was reach out her hand again and push open that door with all the courage she could muster. And surrender her destiny to fate.
She nodded her head, feeling confident.
And then turned around and walked away.
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